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Begging publicly for help and protection in the name of the Only God, Eloi Yahweh as his servant.

Begging publicly for help and protection in the name of the Only God, Eloi Yahweh as his servant..

I am recycling on this post because as usual at RWC Library I cannot open a new post to write and post through wordpress. I am publicly begging you for help. Please read at Facebook what I barely could write having the pressure of two or three people here trying to control me and manipulate me through the use of witchcraft and technology. Government is killing, robbing and took my vehicles after they vandalized them in combination with many others wicked members. The Chief Police was informed and John Boehner the Speaker of the House had several request for a public accusation as the Supreme Court of the United States dismissed my case.
My child was raped and is being abuse. Their is a crime organized using our government system and they are abusing our children. They are forcing prostitution in majority of the people as only source and part of the norm.

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Begging publicly for help and protection in the name of the Only God, Eloi Yahweh as his servant.

Mailing address:

Jackie Speier

155 Bovet Rd, Suite 780

San Mateo, CA 94402

(650) 342-0300

http://speier.house.gov/

 

Governor Jerry Brown
c/o State Capitol, Suite 1173
Sacramento, CA 95814

http://govnews.ca.gov/gov39mail.php

Barbara Boxer

Office of U.S. Senator Barbara Boxer
70 Washington Street, Suite 203
Oakland, CA 94607

http://www.boxer.senate.gov

List of California State Assembly

http://assembly.ca.gov/assemblymembers

 

With all my respect and publicly begging for help and protection:

 

                About a week ago I visited the Traffic Division court where Reupel of so Sheriff denied me access to the court judge where I tried to get help and protection as Redwood City police is ignoring my request for protection and who used a 72 hours parking violation citation to remove the evidences I do have against them.  I have done absolutely everything and anything to make sure people is aware that I am a person who never violated the law, who never put herself or my family in danger; although, many times I have been forced through 51-50 and I have been abused, forced on drugs and denied self representation as imposing on me temporarily orders with the sole intention to hide the crime I discovered is happening and which is a crime organize robbing, using our legal system to rape, abuse not only defenseless children who are isolated.  As I discovered that people like me is denied all rights and protection.  As I discovered that I am persecuted for religious reason, discriminate at many places to get education, to get a job, to be a normal citizen under the protection of our Constitution and our constitutional rights and freedoms.

                Yesterday, I made a report through Meyer School, through San Antonio School as well as the District school in San Jose with Jill Tamashiro, Coordinator whose incomplete report is attached as well as the additions I am making knowing that I told her about, but somehow were not added into her notes and some it is way too much going on for me to be able to say about all as I need to.  Like Joshua’s weight having doubling since I sent a video tape to my JOUR 226 class Professor who I am sure is participating in the crime organized I discovered at SF State and a Grievance was filed on 11/4/13.  I withdraw my whole semester due to the denial of my First and Sixth Amendment.  The meeting for findings and decision was re-scheduled at SF State because Dean Chelberg was sick and unable to do so last 1/18/13.

                I am sure, I forgot to mention to her that Principal of Meyer School in presence of my son’s last teacher acknowledge and told me that they took a camera from my child who was having not appropriate or over his age videos recording and they returned it to his legal and physical father without making a report to any other institution, but I was told she was going to do so after all.

                I might have trouble trying to remember what I am telling you as I am trying to do so to the best of my knowledge; however, let me inform you that knowing of this issue I try hard to be updating online through my blogs knowing that perhaps they will not be able to take away my evidences as Redwood City Police done with all my belongings and evidences against government crime that I have been trying to make public since 2003 and as time progress of course my discoveries and people found as participants.  So additional information is posted at Facebook.com/estrebenavid; WordPress.com/Inthenameofthelord,Iam coming or estrebenavid; as well as Tumblr.com/estrebenavid or star1792. Also at Twitter.com/star179 or 1792.

                Neither of the Principals involved knew much or were aware of the matter, but my child was according to him punish because of his misbehave and was forced to write 500 lines because of what he did that I am sure even happens or I should say it is force on me as wicked crime organized is trying to force dirty-imperfect conditions on me.  

                At this point I am on the street, under the rain, the hard conditions of the weather sleeping at the corner of the Whipple/Veterans Blvd. where for years I have been holding a public accusation as filing everywhere even at the Supreme Court of the United States on 2/13/13 that was dismissed on 2/20/13.  Three times at the Federal Building in San Francisco in 2006-2007 where my last case filed was held there and my last document contesting the dismissal of my three cases under the same first one denying my Pauperis Status quo to dismiss it as also happened recently in my family case where my fee waiver was cancelled because trying to find protection I have constantly forced to file, but it took me a year to finally have one hearing granted by Honor Franchi who was the one who scheduled very shortly after one to deny my fee waiver as I am on the street without income, without a car, without a life and as I was also forced to withdraw my semester as since 2010 I have been pursuing a career and I was able to transfer from College of San Mateo to SF State in 2012 having my AA degree in Journalism.

                To make it short, I am demanding a public accusation against government representatives who are alienating our Constitution, our First Amendment right as they are persecuting me for religious reason as I am claiming to be the Lord, Eloi Yahweh’s Servant, and the real name of Jehovah as known through the Holy Bible.  My child legal and physical custody was taken and from first meeting at Child Protective in Belmont and what happened shortly after I figured out the participation of this institution to get our children and then isolate them to abuse them mentally, physically and even sexually.   My child is constantly put down and depress, first his cousin moved from his home and he stop going out to play because he is missing him and now his friends at Meyer School.

                I did not reported yet to San Jose Police because most of the time it is a game of all throwing you everywhere and to deny protection or help they constantly move us out of jurisdiction.  I am demanding a court order to put my family out of jurisdiction as government representatives lost any that they may have and this is the reason why I am advocating to all in California as well as doing that publicly to all in this country. As they have been denying me the right to bring legal charges through the legal system bending law and regulations; as they removed my belonging to take away the evidences, which I am requesting to be put under protection and I am publicly requesting to not alter, remove, erase or altered any record as of today because publicly I have been reporting and publicizing that even records in court as record at the Redwood City, City Hall is happening as happened years ago in my 1864 Cottage Grove Ave property deed as well as recently as the property was found as my property through the Food Stamp Program I am having.

                This letter DO NOT CONTAIN ALL THE DETAILS.  I AM SENDING A COPY TO SAN JOSE POLICE REPORTING CHILDREN ABUSES BY A SUBSTITUTE TEACHER AT MEYER ELEMENTARY SCHOOL AS I WAS ADVISE BY SUZANNE AS I REPORTED THROUGH Child Abuse Reporting through 299-2071 as I did at the beginning for this year in San Jose as referred by Belmont Child Protective Service who also kept on referring me, but NO ONE PROVIDE HELP, NO ONE PROVIDE PROTECTION AS HAPPENED TODAY AND I HAVE NOT BEING ABLE TO FILE A DOMESTIC VIOLENCE TO REQUEST PROTECTION FOR ME, MY CHILD AND MY FAMILY BECAUSE IT SEEM TO BE EVERYONE CAN BE JUDGE, BUT IF A CRIME ORGANIZE TAKE OVER AND USE OUR HONOR SEATS THERE IS NO LAW PREVENTING OR FOLLOWING UP ON THIS KIND OF REAL THREATEN SITUATIONS.

 

Sincerely,

 

Estrella Benavides

P. O. Box 2741

Redwood City, CA 94064

(650) 921-2084 My phone, my documents, my property have been stolen to alter settings on my phone, to change my greeting, to deny access to internet for my protection as even police is harassing me and threaten me.

NOTE: PLEASE LOOK FOR ME AT THE CORNER, MANY PEOPLE KNOW ME. YOU CAN IDENTIFY ME THROUGH THE PICTURES POST FOR MY SAFETY PUBLICLY IN MY ONLINE BLOGS.

 

Several times I had been reporting to many police departments and they just ignored.  Even at court you can find a bunch of photos of my child abuses and they have been ignored.  Honor Franchi several times dismissed for a year finding just ‘errors’ advised by the Facilitator’s Office that I do  not think really existed.  My child as yesterday was reported to Principal of San Antonio Elementary School as dirty as reported several times to San Jose Police who did not investigate.  No reports made or found.  They are civil and referred me to DA office in Redwood City who told me they were civil and has nothing to do with my issues. I believe you can find my signature doing as advised on 4/17/13 in 4th floor DA’s Office in Redwood City.  My child was dirty on Monday night.  Three times I have been forced to purchase clothes as he was visiting with me and my older son at least and others I had posted online the issues that are force not because he is having bowel movements.  I myself I am going through same issues as wicked crime organized is trying to create conditions.  My child was raped after my reported sexual molestation were described on a letter to the 100 members of Congress on 4/18/2005 and a report was made and rejected by San Mateo Police Department on 6/25/2005.  Chief Police never responded to my inquiries and Child Protective Service as court ignored me.

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Help, begging you for help. You have no idea how the poor people in this country is discriminated. We are the ones paying highest taxes, but education is deny to us, the Americans as we do have 50 percent of the students at Berkeley-Chinese. No wonder why our President is an African not American native as I saw the house where he was born in a magazine and the fake social security he used as he came to this country.

Help, begging you for help. You have no idea how the poor people in this country is discriminated. We are the ones paying highest taxes, but education is deny to us, the Americans as we do have 50 percent of the students at Berkeley-Chinese. No wonder why our President is an African not American native as I saw the house where he was born in a magazine and the fake social security he used as he came to this country..

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Help, begging you for help. You have no idea how the poor people in this country is discriminated. We are the ones paying highest taxes, but education is deny to us, the Americans as we do have 50 percent of the students at Berkeley-Chinese. No wonder why our President is an African not American native as I saw the house where he was born in a magazine and the fake social security he used as he came to this country.

 

 

       
     

Student Services Building, Room 403

1600 Holloway Avenue

San Francisco, California 94132-4045

415/338.2916

concerns@sfsu.edu

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

STUDENT CONCERNS & COMPLAINTS INTAKE FORM

“If things go wrong, as an SF State student, you can rely on support and resources for getting problems solved.” 

 

If you have not yet done so, please visit the “Student Concerns and Complaints” website located at http://www.sfsu.edu/~vpsa/complaints/index.html, or the “Title IX: Creating a Sexual Harassment Free Community” website at http://titleix.sfsu.edu/.  These sites will guide you in problem solving steps and pathways to aid you in finding the correct people to speak with first, depending on the issue you are hoping to solve.  If you have exhausted these steps, please fill out this form as thoroughly as possible so that we can begin to assist you in reaching a resolution.  Turn the completed form into the Student Services Building (SSB), Room 403 or email it to concerns@sfsu.edu.  (This publication is available in alternate formats upon request.  Please contact the Student Affairs/Enrollment Management office at 415-338-2916 or concerns@sfsu.edu.)

 

STUDENT CONTACT INFORMATION

 

Last Name:       Benavides                     First Name:         Estrella                       MI:               J Date:    11/4/2013           

 

Street Address:             P. O. Box 2741                                                                                                                        

 

City:     Redwood City                                                   State:                CA                   Zip Code:          94064              

 

Email:               star1792@mail.sfsu.edu                                                                                                                                                

 

Home Phone #:                                     Cell Phone #:    (650) 921-2084                          Work Phone #:                                     

 

Best Time(s) to Call:      Anytime                                                                        SFSU ID #:       912552776                   

 

DATE/TIME/LOCATION OF INCIDENT/COMPLAINT

 

Date(s) of Incident(s)/Complaint(s):

Since the first day of registration at the Instruction Welcome Meeting, I couldn’t register for BECA 300 because I was not allowed to register or I was having troubles with codes or password.  Only 4 spaces available and 5 people were there.  I was forced to let them be.

 

Approximate Time(s) of Incident(s)/Complaint(s):

 

I’ve been here three semesters with this one.  I have not been registered only in my JOUR 395 class.  My complaint is on all and some of those complaint were brought up to the Chair because I felt that the teachers were participating and purposely downgraded my assignments and opportunities to be successful. I feel that some of the professors were fair compared to SF State who ignored my reports or complaints knowing that this religious persecution is happening.

 

Location(s) of Incident(s)/Complaint(s):

 

Many times classrooms, library labs, even in the shuttle where a good number of students thank the drivers who is the one in charge of the bus in which we all are sharing the space as mind and body as I discussed is just our soul’s home: “a computer..”

 

 

 

 

DESCRIPTION OF INCIDENT/COMPLAINT

 

  1. Summarize the incident(s) giving rise to your complaint in a single sentence.

 

I’m persecuted and discriminated for religious reason and my constitutional rights are being denied.

 

 

 

 

 

  1. How has the incident(s) negatively impacted you personally and/or academically?

This semester the worst ever.  But last one no less.  I got a letter due to a big drop in my GPA from Average A-Bs to Cs in almost all of my classes and I even got an “F,” in my JOUR 395.  This semester is getting worsen than ever because my average is as bad as Ds and Fs.  Professor Bear made a AP Style wrong and also had been indicating me that I cannot quote a person saying their names at beginning or middle and for her is just acceptable just at the end, but the Writing Center as I asked her with book on hand told me “She couldn’t understand her reasons.” However, the same person who commented was the one who misguided me last semester for my BECA 370 assignments. About two weeks ago prior the first time submission of this document which I am correcting because as it was typed it is containing some errors and I am realizing that due to the same abuses that right this second I am suffering as many of the students are robbing me of my talents I forgot to describe, but luckily I told you to request all the documents submitted on the past to many of the Deans and Chairs mentioned in my email.  I also want to inform you that due to the same religious persecution and discrimination I am suffering in which you or SF State is not alone and has the active participation of government representatives from top to bottom even the last two Presidents of the United States of America as far I am aware.  They just took my vehicles in which I have been forced to live until recently just to take away the evidences of their crime.

 

 

 

  1. If applicable, who have you gone to for support regarding the incident(s)?  What did you or others do to try to resolve the incident(s)?  What was the outcome?

 

 

I reported several times to the library lab attendants. I asked several times for help.  I reported to teachers, chair and deans.  I was referred to Osvaldo Del Valle, Director of Student Conduct who didn’t receive my response as he told me I requested the meeting, but the only reason I visited him was responding to Chair Azocar referral.  Chair Patterson helped me and others ignored me; however, Chair Paterson solve the issue with my BECA 350 class not to the issue at the beginning of this semester with BECA 470 where I was denied the right to crash into the class.  Please request the email send to him.  At library, the SF Chronicle copy online was denied, but I saw it available and the first librarian even indicated me how to do so from far as long as I was student here.

 

 

 

  1. Identify individuals who may have observed or witnessed the incident(s) that you described.  Please list their name, telephone number, and email.  If pertinent, please note their relationship to you. 

Many of the lab attendants who helped me to correct the problems I have been facing.  Many times not allowed to edit, to response with a lot of stress because I couldn’t copy or paste or because the data was gone or because the language was changed from a distant computer or because I couldn’t save my stuff in my USB and then I was re-doing the assignments from scratch a lot of time barely on time or past time.

At one time I was almost put out of the school for 13 days.  Professor Yutian Wong, Doctora Camacho, Chair Azocar, Professor Cunningham, Director Spenser, Chair Paterson.  Les Wong, President.  Many students as lab attendants like Mike Cheng, the 308 lab ITT attendant.  Please request the copy of all the documents I sent to them and be aware that I struggle to put them together as people change and altered even the words I am writing at times.

 

 

 

  1. Do you have any documents supporting your allegation?  If so, please list and attach a copy.

 

I am glad that I found many mistakes in this form and I did inform to your secretary, but as I told you above government representatives who I have been accusing publicly since 2003 just confiscated my vehicles where I used to have all my left belonging until last week and where I was forced to live under animals or worst conditions.  My efforts to get help and protection had been denied my John Boehner the Speaker of the House, The Supreme Court of the United States of America where I finally filed a case, but on 2/20/13 was dismissed to keep on hiding the crime I discovered.  I also did file three cases at the Federal Court in San Francisco where Honor Marilyn Hall Patel denied my Pauperis Status in which I was forced to dismiss my cases, which I contested several times until she even unfiled my last document filed.  My cases copy were kept and I am sure they held a hearing in which I was not allowed to be present as I was having a jury trial case at the Superior Court of California where I was forced to be present and this is just for your information.

At SF State I have informed several people

Believe at times, my data or assignments get lost, are not delivered, are altered and that was the case of my last assignment on JOUR 395, which Professor Cunningham saw as I presented to her and the classmates, but my finding were totally the opposite of what she found about the rent inflated prices going high in San Francisco.

 

 

 

 

  1. Describe how you would expect this incident(s) to be resolved.  (What would you like to see happen regarding the incident(s)? In what ways can we support you in this process?)

I am here to be taught equally.  What’s in fact happening to not only me is that we are abused, set up, rob of our talents and not teach at all.  If I am recording and I am doing my share nice and high standards or quality, students screw up on the cables and ruined it.  Others they are not recorded properly and I have many of my precious portfolio ruined.  We are discriminate and persecute for religious reasons.  1) I want to be treated equally to all.  2) Taught as everyone else. 3) As student I should be coach not follow up to screw up my potential interview people just to force me to not be successful as I discovered Professor Bear doing. Some students at time of test, are singing or playing music to call my soul’s attention to help them to rob my knowledge and efforts. 4) Students who breaks rules should be punish, but not me because I don’t let them to treat me as their slave or servant when I am paying here for my tuition to be teach.  5) I want my grades fixed.  6) I expect an investigation with regard my discoveries and accusation.  LAN it is an easy share access and no student should be disturb or abuse to be force to not learn.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Signature:          Estrella Benavides submitted again on 11/18/13                             Date: 11/4/13                                     

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I am upset that I was forced to withdraw my semester thank to two or three of my teachers, well almost all!

I was forced to go on meeting for them to be robbing me of my talents, but right now I am here trying to charge my phone at the library lab and it is no less.

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s I am trying to link to Facebook the box is blinking like a Christmas tree. A miserable Black woman is doing so.

s I am trying to link to Facebook the box is blinking like a Christmas tree. A miserable Black woman is doing so..

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s I am trying to link to Facebook the box is blinking like a Christmas tree. A miserable Black woman is doing so.

s I am trying to link to Facebook the box is blinking like a Christmas tree. A miserable Black woman is doing so..

recycling because people are not letting me to post

Thursday, November 07, 2013 9:00 PMEstrella J Benavides

To:
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Eugene R Chelberg‎; Joseph D Greenwell
Cc:
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Charla Bear‎; Cristina Azocar‎; Scott Patterson‎; bspencer@sfsu.edu‎; Venise Wagner‎; Dina A Ibrahim‎; JOHN E BARSOTTI

Hi to all with all my respect:

Today, I am having an appointment with Dean Eugene R. Chelberg and I hope with Joseph D. Greenwell. I am aware that the issue is the system that lies, that robs, that kills and it is alienating throughout our government representatives our Constitution; my 6th and 1st Amendment. Some of you try to keep it in between the line where I cannot say much about you or the alienation of my rights and freedoms or my equal rights to learn and to be teach as I am here paying for that no matter if it done through my already paid taxes (FAFSA) as partially is done this semester.

It’s not the first semester suffering the worse and even the participation of some professors in the religious persecution and the alienation of my rights and freedoms. As I am writing my emal a student across from me just changed the John E. Barsoti email to capital letters only not as I copy and paste and it is posted on his data page as I search for him. Many times this is the reason why I barely print and rush to do my assignments. This is partially the reason why my English still poor. Aside that BECA lab attendant according to Professor Camacho made a “mistake” saying totally the opposite of broadcasting rules to write scripts last semester. I did have to get a book, talked to Professor Camacho and I struggle not only discerning between what Doctor Camacho taught me, what I read and what I saw, but let me clarified this is the only department who cares and gives the students the opportunity to be coach and support as we are in the process of learning. Majority of time, the lab attendant tries to do her job unless I believe she is advised to not do so as I saw someone else telling her to not help me as I was there.

Several times, in many classes not only here I learned about the students assigned set ups. They don’t show, they don’t post, they don’t respond, they accused you of not doing as they keep doing nothing or do not appreciate what you really done to participate not just to learn, but to try to get the best grade for all. As I mentioned to Dean Chelberg, I had troubles from day one when I was not allowed to register in my BECA 300 crucial and important class as the JOUR 300 in my minor career, but I was able to crash later at the beginning of the semester, not so in my JOUR 300 where luckily I was able to register in my priority period, but out of nowhere the class was cancelled last semester. This semester I was able, but because I did not have a grade on JOUR 300 I was dropped from another class taught by Yumi Wilson where I was getting the As I used to earn almost everywhere not because I am smart, but because I am dedicating my time, my efforts to do so.

On my first semester here, I was accused by a student who made me open a google app account with her to do our assignments and denied access to it immediately after and despite of all my participation she said “I did not do anything.” I did have to show through my emails all what I done. The search, the participation and agreements with one out of the two people working with me, who never allowed me to see the final project to present it. Luckily I read and prepared in case they called me and as I heard them presenting; I participated with a Stanford study on the excessive phone use as well as When Word Collide comments about “multitasker vs. unitasker.” I did have to make my own assignment as others were participating in groups and doing part of the job in my LTNS 660 class. No less happened in BECA 350 last semester where I was at the day of the presentation without knowing what to do or say. I did not know what to do or say not because I did not participate, but the little allowed to do was just kept and enhance by the other two students who started saying everything was OK, under control and were not allowing me to participate, do or absolutely anything. I ended reporting to Doctor Camacho to whom I respect not because she gave me a “C” grade pass, but because she was fair and rightfully granted us what we deserve from a professional point of view. I will repeat, I am aware that it is the system, but some of you have criteria, some of you are very professional in your career. The same happened with Chair Paterson and BECA 350 Professor. I wish I could say the same from Professor Justin Beck because somehow he earned my respect, but what he did with the right screwed up with the left. He also tried to give me a W after assuring me that I was doing OK.

In my JOUR 222 I earned a “C,” after all the efforts and dedication. I felt that my initial test score never improved. I started with an average 60 and it looks like that it is what I came out from the class and if I am saying this is not because I want to complaint, but I did also mentioned to Professor Venise Wagner: “Many of the students are cheating, taking and robbing my talents as they are lazy. One of them even sang, played music to be able to rob my talents as we were having a test or an assignment.” I wrote two Obituaries. One of the students told me that he never said he was from San Francisco; he did insinuated that I invented part of his biography as the second student told me to enhance and never let me have the one he made about me, but I was supposed to edit and I was evaluated very poorly as I barely got the piece. Majority of the time, I need to do two or three times the same assignments and no matter if I spend extra time at the writing lab where I was told I couldn’t be help because it was just for BECA students not JOUR students. It didn’t make sense for me because Chair Azocar referred me several times. The hours in my BECA 665 lab hours were changed as I tried to do my assignments; the computers were not allowing me to save my job in my USB, but that doesn’t only happens there. Happens everywhere; my files get lock, my files do not open no matter if the professor saw my assignment as Professor Cunningham did at the end of the last semester. The ITT tech man screwed me up several times as I tried to put the piece together more than three times. He was forcing me to cut the parts that were talking about the low rent prices in San Francisco and he was not happy as I tried to do what a good reporter needs to do: “NO BIAS.” I JUST HOPE THAT YOU KNOW THAT WE TRIED BECAUSE CERTAINLY WE CHOOSE THIS OR THAT BECAUSE WE LIKE, WE AGREE OR IT SEEM TO BE THE BEST ANSWER. We are in a sense bias, but not supposed to do so consciously.

I got behind in my BECA 665. I couldn’t catch up. Despite the facts that a phone number was provided to be able to have access to the limited two to four hours lab where the computer doesn’t let you save in your USB your progress. In my JOUR 300 people were even following me to screw up my schedule interviews. Some people even cancelled them last minute. My first one I got screwed up by a student who using witchcraft didn’t let me. I started the class with an F and another F in my first assignment. The second, I was lucky to pursue and finally get an interview. My professor was informed at all times. I do not know how I did manage to do so at 9 am having until 11 or 3:25 pm to turn that in, but I was late. I feel that Professor Bear is very lucky and always get her interviews just on time to be. I just wonder if as others I discovered some breaking news are made like the September 11 where 100s of people were killed.

I am running out of time for my appointment at 1 pm, but I am sure there is much more to say. Copy of some of the documents were sent and presented as indicated to the professors and later to the Chair departments. I am homeless forced by members of the same crime-organized using our country who are persecuting me for religious reason and I do have the documents, but due to the nature and time pressure I don’t have them available

Attached my grades comments for JOUR 300.

See you in a few minutes Dean Chelberg, thanks,

Estrella Benavides

Note: very few things were edited as I was trying to post this in WordPress not because I am trying to alter it, but because I realized they are missing the subject or because perhaps I have been learning and keeping part of my learning as I traveled on the Samtrans buses or so. I will learn how to read and write to not make Eloi ashamed. It is not that I care to show you absolutely anything. I do not know why, but I am very simple. I am satisfy with nature beauty; I am more than happy to feel the feelings and ideas of others including myself, animals, plants and Eloi who doesn’t talk, but I believe he look at me and winks his eyes when he is happy or upset and who pull his hat to make it to look nicer when he knows people admired his little baby girl not the old grandma who is proud of her doll. He doesn’t look at me at a growing up woman. No, he loves me more than it. I am the last baby of his only son, Jesus and I am the one who spoiled him: the one who believes no matter the mountain in falling on her; the one who dances for anything and everything he does to save her; the one who sing with her heart and soul telling him that her heart and soul just yelled his name for help!

Last two semester many others professors were informed; some of them were as nicer as Doctor Camacho and I want to thank them. Eloi told me one day that I did not know what else to say or write: “It’s of men to make errors, but who learns, stand and believe in me will get bigger in my kingdom.” I just hope many of you are the ones he wishes to have working with him as for years in America and for this world sake after all we are all his creation.

6. As I was writing my email to Professor Bear today and as I sent copy to Dean Greenwell as well as the Associate Vice President Gene Chelberg. I felt forced to do so by at least one Black woman; I do not know if she was a student. I also felt the same way a second time. I perhaps cannot give the name of the students or outsider people who have been giving me a hard time as I am at the library, but in general I can identify them if they are part of my classroom group or even some of the people from outside if they happen to be next or near me. I can tell you what they had done. I do have some photos and written notes about the abuses.
The form was stolen as my phone, but the meeting took place in 403 with Dean Chelberg and I mentioned his dog to have a clear description, a fact not a delusional statement saying that the meeting and my grievance was filed at SF State.
Begging you for help and begging you for protection in the name of only God who is three equal one because Jesus, his son is the body while the mind is Eloi Yahweh and the Holy Spirit lives in both mind and body computer the basis knowledge is withchcraft; the religious belief that is being use by wicked people, but not as for years for the sake of this world and this country, Eloi Yahweh’s kingdom where he gathered people from all over the world to take care and worship him. Jesus is the physical body and connection that bring us near him and show us the path to him.

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s I am trying to link to Facebook the box is blinking like a Christmas tree. A miserable Black woman is doing so.

 

Monday, November 04, 2013 11:22 PMEstrella J Benavides

 

To:

 Charla Bear 

Cc:

 Eugene R Chelberg‎; Cristina Azocar‎; Joseph D Greenwell‎; shimanof@sfsu.edu 

Attachments:

C grade.docx‎ (30 KB‎)‎[Open in Browser‎]

 

 

Hi Professor Bear:

 

I am very sorry that I feel the way I am feeling from someone like you as I thought very highly of you.  If I want to keep pursuing my career I better off doing as many are wishing me to do and they have been forcing me to do so: “Withdraw all my classes as I know many are doing as last semester- Average “C” as now an average of D or F, which will kill my dream forever, but meanwhile, I will try to save others dream making public the crime and my discoveries.”

 

Please approved my withdrawal from your classes.  I am aware that Chair Azocar needs to sign it and if she let me I will forward that to the registration office and I will request full credit of my semester.  Meanwhile, I am proceeding to file a grievance through Dean Chelberg and Greenwell as others had advised me.

 

With regard my poor English, I am very sorry to tell you that ashamed of SF State, College of San Mateo as this country crime-government organized group who are not teaching because at the Writing lab “errors,” purposely done screwed up many times my little improvements as I am trying hard to be successful.

 

Thanks,

 

Estrella Benavides

912552776

 

 

 

Hi Estrella,

 

I am giving you much of the credit on your Diversity Profile, but your profile didn’t include several of the topics we discussed in class. For instance:

 

What is Collin’s socioeconomic status? His sexual orientation? Does he identify with a particular geography (urban/rural/suburban)? Does he have any disabilities? What gender roles does he identify with?

 

As the assignment stated, “Your diversity profile must touch on all 12 subjects we defined in our diversity definitions”

 

Also, you have several grammar errors in the piece that detract from a full understanding of your work, or imply stereotypes, such as “the language described by him denoted a pure American.” What is a “pure American?” The way you’ve written it comes across like you are stereotyping particular people.

 

Also, this sentence appears stereotypical and potentially offensive on several levels: “you may think he is Chinese because of the “Lee,” in between; he doesn’t look likes at all, but he seems to be smart.”

AssignmentDiversity Profile        50.00 (F)               0–100    50.00

AssignmentReflection on Diversity Profile interview        40.00 (F)               0–100    40.00 %

Hi Estrella,

I’m giving you some credit on this assignment for turning something in, but you didn’t complete most of the requirements. You answered the first question clearly by saying the interview was done over email. You then glaze over the next two questions simply by saying you “never felt uncomfortable.” But you don’t say whether that has to do with the questions Katrina asked (or how they actually DID make you feel) or the method of the interview (questions 2 & 3). You don’t suggest any advice for Katrina in the future (question 4). And you don’t say what you learned from being on the receiving end (question 5), only what you “hope to learn.”

Through our email messages, you will find that I thought Katrina perhaps was busy.  She put a lot of questions together last minute, but I can understand we do have a lot in our plate.  She was very polite.  I tried to respond as much and as quickly as possible. I AM NOT COMPLAINING ABOUT MY CLASSMATE, BUT I TRIED TO BE REASONABLE AND I TRIED TO COOPERATE WITH HER.  I VOLUNTEER. IF ANYTHING, PERHAPS I TEACH HER WHAT I SHOULD TEACH HIM, BUT WHO I AM TO DO SO.

I AM NOT SURE WHAT SHE EXPERIENCE WITH ME, BUT WHAT I EXPERIENCE WITH HIM WAS TERRIBLE; HOWEVER, AS WE DID TALK TO YOU. I FELT HE WAS DIFFERENT AND NICE.  I found a nice person to talk about, but if I mention what he didn’t want to tell me as I tried hard to scoop it out.  At least I say what he look like and I made a nice and a positive comment not only about him, but the Chinese people who perhaps do not deserve it.

I opened myself with Katrina.  I gave her more than what she could asked me and I did sooner than she did ask me about.  HOW DO YOU WANT ME TO TELL YOU: “I DID NOT FEEL BAD TO OPEN UP,” AND YOU ARE GIVING ME A 40 BECAUSE OF IT.  PROFESSOR BEAR, I BELIEVE A 1000 WORDS WOULD TELL AS MUCH AS I WILL SAY WITH MY SILENCE. 

Below you can find all the communication between me and my classmates.  Blame me if I did not do as much as I could or if I did want to make sure that Katrina fail in her assignment as I never done so.

 

Thanks,

 

Estrella Benavides

912552776

 

Wednesday, October 02, 2013 9:59 PMEstrella J Benavides

 

To:

 Katrina

i:

 

 did not receive your questions yet, but I’m supposed to be Latina.  I grew up in Nicaragua.  I came here the first time in 1973 and three months later I went back to Nicaragua.  I did with my legal father and we drove in a truck.  We got lost in Mexico, but I figured the road to go through a map.  
I grew up as Catholic believing in God reading about the New Testament as I went to the same school for years.  Madre Del Divina Pastora.  We were poor because my legal father was a taxi driver, but the school wasn’t exactly for poor people.  It was private and before 1972 or before the big earthquake in Nicaragua they were having a fancy one for the wealthy and a poor version for people like us.  I never like to ride on the school bus, but my sister did I used to hate the chaperone Nina lady that used to check on students.  They used to pick us up the first one and drop the last ones perhaps BC we used to live the farther, but I used to hate that.  I ended riding on buses or saving the money to go by a nice place eating a banana split if I could everyday.

 

True wealthier people’s daughter used to go to the one in the downtown, but as the school disappeared BC of the earthquake; we were not.  Nevertheless, I used to get more cash then them.  My father as a driver used to carry cash daily so it was easy for him to give us a peso that others felt it was too much.  I used to shop the food since I remember.  He used to come to this country and stayed here for months at time per a year or so while my Mom used to keep on renting the taxi and sometimes we were not having enough money for food, but it was also true that at the school bookstore I was authorized and I used to get everything and anything.  He always paid and when he was arriving from this country was as having Santa Claus coming with a bit of everything or he was selling the truck or whatever he managed to get there and before the earthquake my Mom put together two extra business.  One tire shop and a tiny little restaurant, which got lost with 1972 earthquake.

As Catholic we hardly ever went to church every weekend as happens here, but I used to read the New testament at the school and we used to celebrate Santo Domingo.  I used to hate that.  It was like a National celebration.  People used to promise things to God for miracles and in August they were having their bodies with contile meaning Black stuff and they were painting their bodies as if they were Black, but as they were going they were scaring children and putting contile on us.  The wealthy used to ride on fancy horses which were trained to step and dance for the crowd.  the ladies did not ride as man, but as woman never crossing or opening both legs on the horse back.  They used to dress typical dress and we used to go to the town of Santo Domingo walking, some on knees like Virgen Guadalupe in Mexico City celebration.  Almost the same used to happened in September for Independence Day and in November 2nd we used to celebrate the death going to the cemetery to clean and visit our dead tumbs. In December 7 and 8 we celebrate the Concepcion the Maria that is like Virgen Guadalupe in Mexico and good number of the people pray for seven days inviting their neighbors and on the last day they were having a big celebration.  If your were part of their guest you were to get food, drinks, candies, played with pinatas.  No less in Christmas and New Years.  The traditional dinners and parties where people dance with guest people who can be friends, neighbors, relatives or s.  It was fun!  No less in what you call Easter Week here; we called it Semana Santa or Holy Week, but even tough we follow some Catholic traditions as Ash Wednesdays or Holy Friday or so; we used to also take a week or two vacation with pay as in Christmas to go to the Beach or around.  A lot of people drink and celebrate.  Usually a lot of accidents on that time. 

Here I adjust to Halloween, Easter and Christmas or New Years had a lot of similarities. 

 

Estrella

From: Katrina Danielle De Leon Andaya
Sent: Wednesday, October 02, 2013 10:10 PM
To: Estrella J Benavides
Subject: RE: Her email doesn’t work. 

Thank Estrella!

I haven’t thought up questions just yet, but ill go with what you sent me for now. Thank you so much. I’ll actually see you in our reporting class

 

 

Hi Estrella,

 

Friday, October 11, 2013 12:13 AMEstrella J Benavides

 

To:

 Katrina

 

 

Hi: 

 

I just read your response and your were sweet.

 

Thanks,

 

Estrella


From: Katrina
Sent: Tuesday, October 08, 2013 6:58 AM
To: Estrella J Benavides
Subject: RE: Let me know if you need any other information

Hey Estrella,

No worries I’ll use what I have thank you! it’s my bad

-Katrina


From: Estrella J Benavides
Sent: Monday, October 07, 2013 3:06 PM
To: Katrina
Cc: Charla Bear
Subject: RE: Let me know if you need any other information

Hi Katrina:

 

I noticed the email is saying 10;02pm. but is barely 3pm and it seems you sent it on Sunday, at 3:29pm.  I traveled from Redwood City and I barely made it to class and then I work on my paper, but after that was your email responses.

 

Thanks,

 

Estrella  


From: Katrina
Sent: Monday, October 07, 2013 7:51 PM
To: Estrella J Benavides
Subject: RE: Let me know if you need any other information

Hi Estrella, 

Sorry for taking so long. I’ve been very busy as well. Here are a few questions

 

 

1.)What do you consider the most important parts of your racial/ethnic identity? Also, what assumptions do people make about you based on your race/ethnicity? What would you like people to know about your racial or ethnic identity?

 

2.) Do you think your sex (being biologically female or male, etc.) has had any effect on your experiences or how you view your race/ethnicity? Your gender?

 

3.)Do you feel your racial and/or ethnic background has affected your views on one’s sexual orientation, or the topic in general? What about religion?

 

4.) Where do you think you fit in terms of geographical diversity? (Sorry, I know that’s vague, but I need to cover the topic).

 

5.) How would you define your socioeconomic status? Do you feel your racial/ethnic background has had any effect on the socioeconomic status of you or any of your ancestors/relatives?

 

6.)  Being your age, how do you feel being a part your particular generation has affected or been affected by your racial/ethnic background?

 

7.) Have you been affected by any disabilities in your lifetime? (Your own or those of others around you) Do you feel your racial/ethnic background has played any part in how you feel about this?

 

8.) What are your thoughts on citizenship status? How have your own experiences shaped this view? When you first moved to the U.S., what was your immediate citizenship status? Did you need to apply for citizenship, etc.? (Sorry, I’m just asking general questions because I’m not very personally familiar with that process).


From: Estrella J Benavides
Sent: Saturday, October 05, 2013 8:29 PM
To: Katrina
Subject: Let me know if you need any other information

Hi Katrina:

 

I sent you as much as I could, but please don’t hesitate to ask me.  Since Thursday, I had been in a seminar, as I will do tomorrow, but I will be here trying to respond about 8pm if you need any other information.

 

Thanks,

 

Estrella

 

 

I’m giving you some credit on this assignment for turning something in, but you didn’t complete most of the requirements. You answered the first question clearly by saying the interview was done over email. You then glaze over the next two questions simply by saying you “never felt uncomfortable.” But you don’t say whether that has to do with the questions Katrina asked (or how they actually DID make you feel) or the method of the interview (questions 2 & 3). You don’t suggest any advice for Katrina in the future (question 4). And you don’t say what you learned from being on the receiving end (question 5), only what you “hope to learn.”

Professor Bear:

The same date you gave us the assignment I requested the information; below you will also find the followed up and I hope you remember the talked we have the date was almost do the assignment.  This is not the first time.  I am going through this matter and issue.  Many are the students who are participating and working with the “teachers” to force me and millions others to not pass our classes and to stop our dreams or careers. But use us to be able to create and under pay us to do so. 

Wednesday, September 25, 2013 8:34 PMEstrella J Benavides

To:

 C

Hi Colin:

 

I was about to send this email and I saw Lee and I am wondering if you are Chinese or if that is your second name why Lee and who chose it?

 

Would you please provide me with a copy of your auto ethnography unless you feel funny about it?

Now, perhaps there is written most of the things you want someone to know about you, but I want to ask you if you want to share with me something that you remember that brings good memories for you and tell me why? describe if you can the place.  The person who make you feel and think even today about that moment in your life.

 

I will tell you, I used to be Catholic, what about you? 

 

You look for me White, but you are thin and have “rizos” in your hair.  Meaning they are not exatcly straight unless my glasses are dirty and believe it is possible.  One thing I love and perhaps you hate because who cares about what I and as I am going forward trying to figure you out?  I used to love and I believe I still do “Christmas or any family gathering together.  Do you?

 

Do you speak any other language and where did you learn how to talk or write on that language?

 

Tell me with whom do you get along and why that person is your friend or why do you hang with him or her?

 

Do you like to travel and where did you ever go or are you from California?

 

But tell me what is your major and why do you like it?  How did you get to the conclusion that you want to pursue it or are you undecided about your goal yet?  If that the case what it is that keep you going and what it is the interest you the most?

 

Are you a savvy person and in what, don’t tell me computer because I need help with it, but what I most need and wish to have today is a good lawyer.  Do’t tell me you are studying to become one.

 

Tell me about your Mon, Dad, but mainly your grandma or your younger brother or sister unless you are the baby tell me about the old big brother or sister who help you and if you are the only one.  Tell about your good or bad feelings about it?

 

By now I believe you told me about your believes in the political arena as well as in your spiritual, but do you have a religion?  Why do you practice?  Are you one of those who hate people and what are the characteristic of that human if there is anyone that you hate because of race, religious belief or just because you are mean and do love to hate?

 

I’m assuming you were born in U. S., but if you didn’t where did your Mom had the accident?  Don’t get offended, I believe that the pain comes where the baby in this case you get tired of being inside Mom’s and happens any place.

 

Oh well, don’t tell me you got offended because if you don’t hate me yet; I am feeling you may arrived from Jupiter and if you did in what year, what about the day.  Do you know the special name that day has in any book or do you know who else was born as you did on the same day and perhaps a different year?

 

I am not going to ask you if you are a middle class because Carla Bear said majority is so why do you considered yourself middle class if you believe that?

 

The terms are:

 

Race (categories: Hispanic, Latino, white, etc.)

Ethnicity

Nationality

Sex (male, female)

Gender

Sexual Orientation (gay, bisexual, straight, etc.)

Religion

Geographic diversity (neighborhoods, cities, urban, rural, etc)

Socioeconomic status (middle class, etc)

Age (tweens, millennials, etc.)

Disability (mental, physical, etc)

Citizenship status (undocumented, green card, etc)

I am not sure if I missed any of this, but I hope you can tell me about if I did.  Please let me know as soon as possible because I am not good at writing and I will try to edit to get a grade above “F,” this time.

Hey Estrella it looks like Professor Bear wants to not use Autoethnography’s as sources. Id be happy to just list off a couple of factors about my life but he email looks like she wants more of a reactionary interview process.

 

Name:

Age: 23

family origins: The Welsh Islands (Wales)

Nationality: Id consider myself to be purely American since this land is all ive known.

Cultural: Culturally my family and myself are part of American culture. That means alot of things to alot of people, but for us it embodies the love of many things that are traditionally American; there are many such things take your pick.

Ancestry: Like i had mentioned earlier my family is froms Wales which is an island state off the coast of the United Kingdom. Its small and a distant memory to most in my family.

language: I speak only one language and that is American English.

Beliefs: As for beliefs i do believe in god. I grew up in a baptist christian environment, but do not attend church regularly now.

Homeland: Im rather patriotic about being an American. I feel like this country does alot of good around the globe to help people besides our own. I consider the United States my homeland.

History: All of my life history takes place in the U.S. and does not include a narrative on immigration.

Race: I’m not really a huge supporter of the race word i feel like it is used only when meritocracies don’t exist. However, if i had to label myself id say that im racially Euro-American.

 

If you have any more pointed questions id be happy to answer them. The email sent out by Professor Bear is rather telling in that she wants these reports to differ from our Autoethnograpy’s, otherwise our partner would just re-write what has already been written.

From: Estrella J Benavides

Sent: Wednesday, October 02, 2013 3:33 PM

To: C

Subject: RE: I had not hear d of you. Would you please let me know?

 

Hi:

 

Anything you can provide me with.  I am desperate.  I am not so good at writing and I take my time doing it.

 

Thanks,

 

Estrella

From: C

Sent: Monday, September 30, 2013 10:16 PM

To: Estrella J Benavides

Subject: RE: I had not hear d of you. Would you please let me know?

 

Hello Estrella, good to hear from you again. Would you like for me to start by sending you my autoethnography?

From: Estrella J Benavides

Sent: Saturday, September 28, 2013 9:36 PM

To: C

Subject: RE: I had not hear d of you. Would you please let me know?

 

Hi: C

 

Would you please remember about me and our assignment.

 

Thanks,

 

Estrella

From: C

Sent: Thursday, September 26, 2013 11:10 PM

To: Estrella J Benavides

Subject: RE: I had not hear d of you. Would you please let me know?

 

Hey Estrella,

Yea i got you here im just real busy with school untill friday. My plan is to link you my autoeth’ on friday afternoon. Currently in class ill talk to you soon.

 

-Calculus C

From: Estrella J Benavides

Sent: Thursday, September 26, 2013 7:42 PM

To: C

Subject: I had not hear d of you. Would you please let me know?

 

Hi C:

 

Would you please let me know about you as soon as possible?

 

Sunday, October 06, 2013 4:08 AMEstrella J Benavides

 

To:

 C

 

 

Hi C:

 

I’m not trying to be difficult.  I get that you may celebrate Halloween, Thanksgiving, Easter, but how do you do so.  My Christmas are one of the most important holidays and for me the traditional dinner is important as the gift and after dinner waiting for the midnight to come we open the gifts, laugh, drink and eat. What about you and your family?

 

Thanks,

 

Estrella 

 

 

Sunday, October 06, 2013 10:54 PMEstrella J Benavides

 

To:

 C 

Cc:

 Charla Bear 

 

Hi C:

 

Would you please provide me with more details about your own personal experiences.  I can described a Halloween or a Thanksgiving or any other holiday, but I need more specific details of your own experiences, feelings, ideas and anything that you may think.  Please refer to my first questionnaire sent to you since assignment was given.  To make it easy I also gave you more details of my inquiries last night. Again, I am sorry. the only reason I am insisting is because I can not put my words and ideas that is not the goal.

 

Thanks,

 

Estrella

 

Hi C:

 

Thank you for your response.  I am not as good as I wish, but I am trying hard and I hope you will not be disappointed.

 

But thank you so much for your nice words,

 

Estrella


From: C
Sent: Wednesday, October 09, 2013 1:44 AM
To: Estrella J Benavides
Subject: RE: WOULD YOU PLEASE ANSWER THE FIRST QUESTIONAIRE OR EMAIL I SENT

Thanks Estrella I hope your doing well on your essay, but im sure you’ve already completed it with a superb finish. 

-C


From: Estrella J Benavides
Sent: Monday, October 07, 2013 6:47 PM
To: C
Cc: Charla Bear
Subject: RE: WOULD YOU PLEASE ANSWER THE FIRST QUESTIONAIRE OR EMAIL I SENT

C:

 

I just read your last email and I want to apologize.  For you the writing in capital letter might be meaning something else.  For me was locked of attention.  I’m very sorry about that.  On the other hand, talking to you this afternoon let me find a fine well oriented young American with good future goals.  I feel you wrote plenty and I do have enough to write about you. 

 

Thank you for your kindness and time,

 

Estrella


From: C
Sent: Monday, October 07, 2013 5:28 AM
To: Estrella J Benavides
Subject: RE: WOULD YOU PLEASE ANSWER THE FIRST QUESTIONAIRE OR EMAIL I SENT

Estrella,
    I have one older brother, He just had a baby boy which makes me an uncle. Im 23 and a journalism major at SFSU. Im pretty political and tend to lean on fiscally conservative issues. Because of that i watch alot of political commentary along with reading hard news stories from various online sources; twitter is a good place to get a scoop on developing issues. I found my calling to be a journalist through the passionate debates ive had throughout my collegiate career. Im a transfer student from De Anza college. The college is located from my hometown of Cupertino, which is part of the Santa Clara County system. 

As a family observe Christmas by going to evening church followed by a morning of frivolities: Food, laughs, gifts, stories, and movies. Drinking alcoholic beverages is something i rarely do around my family as the rest of my family tends to be dry. 

To be frank, i think its a little unfair for you to email me with all caps as a title on an assignment i responded to 4 days prior. This complicates issues because I leave for the weekends to head back home and hear nothing from you until you desperately need answers from you. To answer your question about my partner i set up a time to actually meet that person so i could gather and extract pertinent data. I need to talk to you in class tomorrow about this emailing back and forth business. 

Have a good night.


From: Estrella J Benavides
Sent: Sunday, October 06, 2013 1:27 AM
To: C
Subject: WOULD YOU PLEASE ANSWER THE FIRST QUESTIONAIRE OR EMAIL I SENT

Hi:

 

I am sorry that I am going back to you today, but I had been in a seminar since Thursday.  Thank your for the information provided, but to write 550 to 650 words.  I really need more information about you.  I sent you an email with ridiculous questions and inputs perhaps, but I really need more information to be able to write at least 500 words. 

Do you have brothers, sisters?  What’s your major? How are you doing?  What kind of issues or goals do you have?

What elementary or high school did you go to? When did you graduate from high school and in what town?  Did you earn or transfer any degree?

I know we are busy, but this is part of it.  Please help me to get my grade and I hope whoever is doing so for you will try to provide you with the tools.  I will go again to the seminar tomorrow, but I will be here by 8pm trying to do my assignment.  Thanks a millions ahead of time.  I hope you don’t feel I am doing this last minute because I knew and I try to push it earlier.  Anything else you want to share and may be relevant for you and your family?

 

Thanks,

 

Estrella Benavides

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Monday, November 04, 2013 11:22 PMEstrella J Benavides

 
To:
 
 Charla Bear 
Cc:
 
 Eugene R Chelberg‎; Cristina Azocar‎; Joseph D Greenwell‎; shimanof@sfsu.edu 

names ommitted purposely!

Monday, November 04, 2013 11:22 PMEstrella J Benavides

To:
Charla Bear
Cc:
Eugene R Chelberg‎; Cristina Azocar‎; Joseph D Greenwell‎; shimanof@sfsu.edu
Attachments:
C grade.docx‎ (30 KB‎)‎[Open in Browser‎]

Hi Professor Bear:

I am very sorry that I feel the way I am feeling from someone like you as I thought very highly of you. If I want to keep pursuing my career I better off doing as many are wishing me to do and they have been forcing me to do so: “Withdraw all my classes as I know many are doing as last semester- Average “C” as now an average of D or F, which will kill my dream forever, but meanwhile, I will try to save others dream making public the crime and my discoveries.”

Please approved my withdrawal from your classes. I am aware that Chair Azocar needs to sign it and if she let me I will forward that to the registration office and I will request full credit of my semester. Meanwhile, I am proceeding to file a grievance through Dean Chelberg and Greenwell as others had advised me.

With regard my poor English, I am very sorry to tell you that ashamed of SF State, College of San Mateo as this country crime-government organized group who are not teaching because at the Writing lab “errors,” purposely done screwed up many times my little improvements as I am trying hard to be successful.

Thanks,

Estrella Benavides
912552776

Hi Estrella,

I am giving you much of the credit on your Diversity Profile, but your profile didn’t include several of the topics we discussed in class. For instance:

What is Collin’s socioeconomic status? His sexual orientation? Does he identify with a particular geography (urban/rural/suburban)? Does he have any disabilities? What gender roles does he identify with?

As the assignment stated, “Your diversity profile must touch on all 12 subjects we defined in our diversity definitions”

Also, you have several grammar errors in the piece that detract from a full understanding of your work, or imply stereotypes, such as “the language described by him denoted a pure American.” What is a “pure American?” The way you’ve written it comes across like you are stereotyping particular people.

Also, this sentence appears stereotypical and potentially offensive on several levels: “you may think he is Chinese because of the “Lee,” in between; he doesn’t look likes at all, but he seems to be smart.”
AssignmentDiversity Profile 50.00 (F) 0–100 50.00
AssignmentReflection on Diversity Profile interview 40.00 (F) 0–100 40.00 %
Hi Estrella,
I’m giving you some credit on this assignment for turning something in, but you didn’t complete most of the requirements. You answered the first question clearly by saying the interview was done over email. You then glaze over the next two questions simply by saying you “never felt uncomfortable.” But you don’t say whether that has to do with the questions Katrina asked (or how they actually DID make you feel) or the method of the interview (questions 2 & 3). You don’t suggest any advice for Katrina in the future (question 4). And you don’t say what you learned from being on the receiving end (question 5), only what you “hope to learn.”
Through our email messages, you will find that I thought Katrina perhaps was busy. She put a lot of questions together last minute, but I can understand we do have a lot in our plate. She was very polite. I tried to respond as much and as quickly as possible. I AM NOT COMPLAINING ABOUT MY CLASSMATE, BUT I TRIED TO BE REASONABLE AND I TRIED TO COOPERATE WITH HER. I VOLUNTEER. IF ANYTHING, PERHAPS I TEACH HER WHAT I SHOULD TEACH HIM, BUT WHO I AM TO DO SO.
I AM NOT SURE WHAT SHE EXPERIENCE WITH ME, BUT WHAT I EXPERIENCE WITH HIM WAS TERRIBLE; HOWEVER, AS WE DID TALK TO YOU. I FELT HE WAS DIFFERENT AND NICE. I found a nice person to talk about, but if I mention what he didn’t want to tell me as I tried hard to scoop it out. At least I say what he look like and I made a nice and a positive comment not only about him, but the Chinese people who perhaps do not deserve it.
I opened myself with Katrina. I gave her more than what she could asked me and I did sooner than she did ask me about. HOW DO YOU WANT ME TO TELL YOU: “I DID NOT FEEL BAD TO OPEN UP,” AND YOU ARE GIVING ME A 40 BECAUSE OF IT. PROFESSOR BEAR, I BELIEVE A 1000 WORDS WOULD TELL AS MUCH AS I WILL SAY WITH MY SILENCE.
Below you can find all the communication between me and my classmates. Blame me if I did not do as much as I could or if I did want to make sure that Katrina fail in her assignment as I never done so.

Thanks,

Estrella Benavides
912552776

Wednesday, October 02, 2013 9:59 PMEstrella J Benavides

To:
Katrina
i:

did not receive your questions yet, but I’m supposed to be Latina. I grew up in Nicaragua. I came here the first time in 1973 and three months later I went back to Nicaragua. I did with my legal father and we drove in a truck. We got lost in Mexico, but I figured the road to go through a map.
I grew up as Catholic believing in God reading about the New Testament as I went to the same school for years. Madre Del Divina Pastora. We were poor because my legal father was a taxi driver, but the school wasn’t exactly for poor people. It was private and before 1972 or before the big earthquake in Nicaragua they were having a fancy one for the wealthy and a poor version for people like us. I never like to ride on the school bus, but my sister did I used to hate the chaperone Nina lady that used to check on students. They used to pick us up the first one and drop the last ones perhaps BC we used to live the farther, but I used to hate that. I ended riding on buses or saving the money to go by a nice place eating a banana split if I could everyday.

True wealthier people’s daughter used to go to the one in the downtown, but as the school disappeared BC of the earthquake; we were not. Nevertheless, I used to get more cash then them. My father as a driver used to carry cash daily so it was easy for him to give us a peso that others felt it was too much. I used to shop the food since I remember. He used to come to this country and stayed here for months at time per a year or so while my Mom used to keep on renting the taxi and sometimes we were not having enough money for food, but it was also true that at the school bookstore I was authorized and I used to get everything and anything. He always paid and when he was arriving from this country was as having Santa Claus coming with a bit of everything or he was selling the truck or whatever he managed to get there and before the earthquake my Mom put together two extra business. One tire shop and a tiny little restaurant, which got lost with 1972 earthquake.
As Catholic we hardly ever went to church every weekend as happens here, but I used to read the New testament at the school and we used to celebrate Santo Domingo. I used to hate that. It was like a National celebration. People used to promise things to God for miracles and in August they were having their bodies with contile meaning Black stuff and they were painting their bodies as if they were Black, but as they were going they were scaring children and putting contile on us. The wealthy used to ride on fancy horses which were trained to step and dance for the crowd. the ladies did not ride as man, but as woman never crossing or opening both legs on the horse back. They used to dress typical dress and we used to go to the town of Santo Domingo walking, some on knees like Virgen Guadalupe in Mexico City celebration. Almost the same used to happened in September for Independence Day and in November 2nd we used to celebrate the death going to the cemetery to clean and visit our dead tumbs. In December 7 and 8 we celebrate the Concepcion the Maria that is like Virgen Guadalupe in Mexico and good number of the people pray for seven days inviting their neighbors and on the last day they were having a big celebration. If your were part of their guest you were to get food, drinks, candies, played with pinatas. No less in Christmas and New Years. The traditional dinners and parties where people dance with guest people who can be friends, neighbors, relatives or s. It was fun! No less in what you call Easter Week here; we called it Semana Santa or Holy Week, but even tough we follow some Catholic traditions as Ash Wednesdays or Holy Friday or so; we used to also take a week or two vacation with pay as in Christmas to go to the Beach or around. A lot of people drink and celebrate. Usually a lot of accidents on that time.
Here I adjust to Halloween, Easter and Christmas or New Years had a lot of similarities.

Estrella
From: Katrina Danielle De Leon Andaya
Sent: Wednesday, October 02, 2013 10:10 PM
To: Estrella J Benavides
Subject: RE: Her email doesn’t work.
Thank Estrella!
I haven’t thought up questions just yet, but ill go with what you sent me for now. Thank you so much. I’ll actually see you in our reporting class

Hi Estrella,

Friday, October 11, 2013 12:13 AMEstrella J Benavides

To:
Katrina

Hi:

I just read your response and your were sweet.

Thanks,

Estrella
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From: Katrina
Sent: Tuesday, October 08, 2013 6:58 AM
To: Estrella J Benavides
Subject: RE: Let me know if you need any other information
Hey Estrella,
No worries I’ll use what I have thank you! it’s my bad
-Katrina
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From: Estrella J Benavides
Sent: Monday, October 07, 2013 3:06 PM
To: Katrina
Cc: Charla Bear
Subject: RE: Let me know if you need any other information
Hi Katrina:

I noticed the email is saying 10;02pm. but is barely 3pm and it seems you sent it on Sunday, at 3:29pm. I traveled from Redwood City and I barely made it to class and then I work on my paper, but after that was your email responses.

Thanks,

Estrella
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From: Katrina
Sent: Monday, October 07, 2013 7:51 PM
To: Estrella J Benavides
Subject: RE: Let me know if you need any other information
Hi Estrella,
Sorry for taking so long. I’ve been very busy as well. Here are a few questions

1.)What do you consider the most important parts of your racial/ethnic identity? Also, what assumptions do people make about you based on your race/ethnicity? What would you like people to know about your racial or ethnic identity?

2.) Do you think your sex (being biologically female or male, etc.) has had any effect on your experiences or how you view your race/ethnicity? Your gender?

3.)Do you feel your racial and/or ethnic background has affected your views on one’s sexual orientation, or the topic in general? What about religion?

4.) Where do you think you fit in terms of geographical diversity? (Sorry, I know that’s vague, but I need to cover the topic).

5.) How would you define your socioeconomic status? Do you feel your racial/ethnic background has had any effect on the socioeconomic status of you or any of your ancestors/relatives?

6.) Being your age, how do you feel being a part your particular generation has affected or been affected by your racial/ethnic background?

7.) Have you been affected by any disabilities in your lifetime? (Your own or those of others around you) Do you feel your racial/ethnic background has played any part in how you feel about this?

8.) What are your thoughts on citizenship status? How have your own experiences shaped this view? When you first moved to the U.S., what was your immediate citizenship status? Did you need to apply for citizenship, etc.? (Sorry, I’m just asking general questions because I’m not very personally familiar with that process).
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From: Estrella J Benavides
Sent: Saturday, October 05, 2013 8:29 PM
To: Katrina
Subject: Let me know if you need any other information
Hi Katrina:

I sent you as much as I could, but please don’t hesitate to ask me. Since Thursday, I had been in a seminar, as I will do tomorrow, but I will be here trying to respond about 8pm if you need any other information.

Thanks,

Estrella

I’m giving you some credit on this assignment for turning something in, but you didn’t complete most of the requirements. You answered the first question clearly by saying the interview was done over email. You then glaze over the next two questions simply by saying you “never felt uncomfortable.” But you don’t say whether that has to do with the questions Katrina asked (or how they actually DID make you feel) or the method of the interview (questions 2 & 3). You don’t suggest any advice for Katrina in the future (question 4). And you don’t say what you learned from being on the receiving end (question 5), only what you “hope to learn.”
Professor Bear:
The same date you gave us the assignment I requested the information; below you will also find the followed up and I hope you remember the talked we have the date was almost do the assignment. This is not the first time. I am going through this matter and issue. Many are the students who are participating and working with the “teachers” to force me and millions others to not pass our classes and to stop our dreams or careers. But use us to be able to create and under pay us to do so.
Wednesday, September 25, 2013 8:34 PMEstrella J Benavides
To:
C
Hi Colin:

I was about to send this email and I saw Lee and I am wondering if you are Chinese or if that is your second name why Lee and who chose it?

Would you please provide me with a copy of your auto ethnography unless you feel funny about it?
Now, perhaps there is written most of the things you want someone to know about you, but I want to ask you if you want to share with me something that you remember that brings good memories for you and tell me why? describe if you can the place. The person who make you feel and think even today about that moment in your life.

I will tell you, I used to be Catholic, what about you?

You look for me White, but you are thin and have “rizos” in your hair. Meaning they are not exatcly straight unless my glasses are dirty and believe it is possible. One thing I love and perhaps you hate because who cares about what I and as I am going forward trying to figure you out? I used to love and I believe I still do “Christmas or any family gathering together. Do you?

Do you speak any other language and where did you learn how to talk or write on that language?

Tell me with whom do you get along and why that person is your friend or why do you hang with him or her?

Do you like to travel and where did you ever go or are you from California?

But tell me what is your major and why do you like it? How did you get to the conclusion that you want to pursue it or are you undecided about your goal yet? If that the case what it is that keep you going and what it is the interest you the most?

Are you a savvy person and in what, don’t tell me computer because I need help with it, but what I most need and wish to have today is a good lawyer. Do’t tell me you are studying to become one.

Tell me about your Mon, Dad, but mainly your grandma or your younger brother or sister unless you are the baby tell me about the old big brother or sister who help you and if you are the only one. Tell about your good or bad feelings about it?

By now I believe you told me about your believes in the political arena as well as in your spiritual, but do you have a religion? Why do you practice? Are you one of those who hate people and what are the characteristic of that human if there is anyone that you hate because of race, religious belief or just because you are mean and do love to hate?

I’m assuming you were born in U. S., but if you didn’t where did your Mom had the accident? Don’t get offended, I believe that the pain comes where the baby in this case you get tired of being inside Mom’s and happens any place.

Oh well, don’t tell me you got offended because if you don’t hate me yet; I am feeling you may arrived from Jupiter and if you did in what year, what about the day. Do you know the special name that day has in any book or do you know who else was born as you did on the same day and perhaps a different year?

I am not going to ask you if you are a middle class because Carla Bear said majority is so why do you considered yourself middle class if you believe that?

The terms are:

Race (categories: Hispanic, Latino, white, etc.)
Ethnicity
Nationality
Sex (male, female)
Gender
Sexual Orientation (gay, bisexual, straight, etc.)
Religion
Geographic diversity (neighborhoods, cities, urban, rural, etc)
Socioeconomic status (middle class, etc)
Age (tweens, millennials, etc.)
Disability (mental, physical, etc)
Citizenship status (undocumented, green card, etc)
I am not sure if I missed any of this, but I hope you can tell me about if I did. Please let me know as soon as possible because I am not good at writing and I will try to edit to get a grade above “F,” this time.
Hey Estrella it looks like Professor Bear wants to not use Autoethnography’s as sources. Id be happy to just list off a couple of factors about my life but he email looks like she wants more of a reactionary interview process.

Name:
Age: 23
family origins: The Welsh Islands (Wales)
Nationality: Id consider myself to be purely American since this land is all ive known.
Cultural: Culturally my family and myself are part of American culture. That means alot of things to alot of people, but for us it embodies the love of many things that are traditionally American; there are many such things take your pick.
Ancestry: Like i had mentioned earlier my family is froms Wales which is an island state off the coast of the United Kingdom. Its small and a distant memory to most in my family.
language: I speak only one language and that is American English.
Beliefs: As for beliefs i do believe in god. I grew up in a baptist christian environment, but do not attend church regularly now.
Homeland: Im rather patriotic about being an American. I feel like this country does alot of good around the globe to help people besides our own. I consider the United States my homeland.
History: All of my life history takes place in the U.S. and does not include a narrative on immigration.
Race: I’m not really a huge supporter of the race word i feel like it is used only when meritocracies don’t exist. However, if i had to label myself id say that im racially Euro-American.

If you have any more pointed questions id be happy to answer them. The email sent out by Professor Bear is rather telling in that she wants these reports to differ from our Autoethnograpy’s, otherwise our partner would just re-write what has already been written.
From: Estrella J Benavides
Sent: Wednesday, October 02, 2013 3:33 PM
To: C
Subject: RE: I had not hear d of you. Would you please let me know?

Hi:

Anything you can provide me with. I am desperate. I am not so good at writing and I take my time doing it.

Thanks,

Estrella
From: C
Sent: Monday, September 30, 2013 10:16 PM
To: Estrella J Benavides
Subject: RE: I had not hear d of you. Would you please let me know?

Hello Estrella, good to hear from you again. Would you like for me to start by sending you my autoethnography?
From: Estrella J Benavides
Sent: Saturday, September 28, 2013 9:36 PM
To: C
Subject: RE: I had not hear d of you. Would you please let me know?

Hi: C

Would you please remember about me and our assignment.

Thanks,

Estrella
From: C
Sent: Thursday, September 26, 2013 11:10 PM
To: Estrella J Benavides
Subject: RE: I had not hear d of you. Would you please let me know?

Hey Estrella,
Yea i got you here im just real busy with school untill friday. My plan is to link you my autoeth’ on friday afternoon. Currently in class ill talk to you soon.

-Calculus C
From: Estrella J Benavides
Sent: Thursday, September 26, 2013 7:42 PM
To: C
Subject: I had not hear d of you. Would you please let me know?

Hi C:

Would you please let me know about you as soon as possible?

Sunday, October 06, 2013 4:08 AMEstrella J Benavides

To:
C

Hi C:

I’m not trying to be difficult. I get that you may celebrate Halloween, Thanksgiving, Easter, but how do you do so. My Christmas are one of the most important holidays and for me the traditional dinner is important as the gift and after dinner waiting for the midnight to come we open the gifts, laugh, drink and eat. What about you and your family?

Thanks,

Estrella

Sunday, October 06, 2013 10:54 PMEstrella J Benavides

To:
C
Cc:
Charla Bear

Hi C:

Would you please provide me with more details about your own personal experiences. I can described a Halloween or a Thanksgiving or any other holiday, but I need more specific details of your own experiences, feelings, ideas and anything that you may think. Please refer to my first questionnaire sent to you since assignment was given. To make it easy I also gave you more details of my inquiries last night. Again, I am sorry. the only reason I am insisting is because I can not put my words and ideas that is not the goal.

Thanks,

Estrella

Hi C:

Thank you for your response. I am not as good as I wish, but I am trying hard and I hope you will not be disappointed.

But thank you so much for your nice words,

Estrella
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From: C
Sent: Wednesday, October 09, 2013 1:44 AM
To: Estrella J Benavides
Subject: RE: WOULD YOU PLEASE ANSWER THE FIRST QUESTIONAIRE OR EMAIL I SENT
Thanks Estrella I hope your doing well on your essay, but im sure you’ve already completed it with a superb finish.

-C
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From: Estrella J Benavides
Sent: Monday, October 07, 2013 6:47 PM
To: C
Cc: Charla Bear
Subject: RE: WOULD YOU PLEASE ANSWER THE FIRST QUESTIONAIRE OR EMAIL I SENT
C:

I just read your last email and I want to apologize. For you the writing in capital letter might be meaning something else. For me was locked of attention. I’m very sorry about that. On the other hand, talking to you this afternoon let me find a fine well oriented young American with good future goals. I feel you wrote plenty and I do have enough to write about you.

Thank you for your kindness and time,

Estrella
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From: C
Sent: Monday, October 07, 2013 5:28 AM
To: Estrella J Benavides
Subject: RE: WOULD YOU PLEASE ANSWER THE FIRST QUESTIONAIRE OR EMAIL I SENT
Estrella,
I have one older brother, He just had a baby boy which makes me an uncle. Im 23 and a journalism major at SFSU. Im pretty political and tend to lean on fiscally conservative issues. Because of that i watch alot of political commentary along with reading hard news stories from various online sources; twitter is a good place to get a scoop on developing issues. I found my calling to be a journalist through the passionate debates ive had throughout my collegiate career. Im a transfer student from De Anza college. The college is located from my hometown of Cupertino, which is part of the Santa Clara County system.

As a family observe Christmas by going to evening church followed by a morning of frivolities: Food, laughs, gifts, stories, and movies. Drinking alcoholic beverages is something i rarely do around my family as the rest of my family tends to be dry.

To be frank, i think its a little unfair for you to email me with all caps as a title on an assignment i responded to 4 days prior. This complicates issues because I leave for the weekends to head back home and hear nothing from you until you desperately need answers from you. To answer your question about my partner i set up a time to actually meet that person so i could gather and extract pertinent data. I need to talk to you in class tomorrow about this emailing back and forth business.

Have a good night.
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From: Estrella J Benavides
Sent: Sunday, October 06, 2013 1:27 AM
To: C
Subject: WOULD YOU PLEASE ANSWER THE FIRST QUESTIONAIRE OR EMAIL I SENT
Hi:

I am sorry that I am going back to you today, but I had been in a seminar since Thursday. Thank your for the information provided, but to write 550 to 650 words. I really need more information about you. I sent you an email with ridiculous questions and inputs perhaps, but I really need more information to be able to write at least 500 words.
Do you have brothers, sisters? What’s your major? How are you doing? What kind of issues or goals do you have?
What elementary or high school did you go to? When did you graduate from high school and in what town? Did you earn or transfer any degree?
I know we are busy, but this is part of it. Please help me to get my grade and I hope whoever is doing so for you will try to provide you with the tools. I will go again to the seminar tomorrow, but I will be here by 8pm trying to do my assignment. Thanks a millions ahead of time. I hope you don’t feel I am doing this last minute because I knew and I try to push it earlier. Anything else you want to share and may be relevant for you and your family?

Thanks,

Estrella Benavides

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